30 January 2003dressing up my blog is fun. :)disclaimer: still a work in progress! dreaming aloud at 12:40 AM
26 January 2003The PartingMichael Drayton Since there's no help, come let us kiss and part-- Nay, I have done, you get no more of me, And I am glad, yea, glad with all my heart, That thus so cleanly I myself can free. Shake hands forever, cancel all our vows, And when we meet at any time again, Be it not seen in either of our brows That we one jot of former love retain. Now at the last gasp of Love's latest breath, When, his pulse failing, Passion speechless lies, When Faith is kneeling by his bed of death, And Innocence is closing up his eyes --Now if thou wouldst; when all have given him over; From death to life thou might'st him yet recover. To the Virgins, To Make Much of Time Robert Herrick Gather ye rosebuds while ye may, Old Time is still a-flying; And this same flower that smiles today, Tomorrow will be dying. The glorious lamp of heaven, the Sun, The higher he's a-getting; The sooner will his race be run, And nearer he's to setting. That age is best, which is the first, When youth and blood are warmer; But being spent, the worse, and worst Times still succeed the former. Then be not coy, but use your time, And while ye may, go marry; For having lost but once your prime, You may forever tarry. dreaming aloud at 2:27 PM
23 January 2003i have succumbed to my tummy's grumblings in protest to my lack of food intake. actually, that's not true, because i eat a lot, and often. i am just up late, or later than usual, and i always get hungry if i stay up too late. yes, late. i know, what a shock. 11:30, when you don't have much hwk, only studying, is pretty late. and i've been trying to get myself to bed earlier recently. :) *beams proudly* but here i am. sitting in front of the computer. tired. glazed eyes. chatting with people online. typing in this little journal of mine. and why? i have no idea. i just can't seem to shut off my brain. so here i am. with the company of my warm cranberry-orange bagel, slathered with cream cheese. :) at least my tummy is happy."forgive and forget, and move on." this used to be my philosophy. but then i discovered a slight problem--what if you simply cannot forget? you can forgive, but without forgetting, you are unable to move on. more frustrations and self-pitying crying sessions. i'd like to change. i just don't know how. simply helpless and exhausted. sitting there, motionless, like a baby observing its surroundings, unsure of where to go, what to do, frozen by the overwhelming chaos around her. i should probably learn from that baby, though, and learn to see things with a new perspective. start over from scratch. see through an infant's eyes--everything curiously new, strange, wonderful. if only. dreaming aloud at 11:31 PM
i would like to write a poem. i feel somewhat inspired. but i cannot find the words. i hate this. a bad mood makes everything horrible. maybe i should just go to bed and start fresh tomorrow. this whole day was sour, like curdled milk. bitter disappointment. anger, annoyance. at the perkiness of others. at the girlish cutesy gigglyness of others. am i like this? please smack me if i ever talk like that, act like that. mad at the world. people. everyone go away and leave me alone! ah, blissful solitude...and then what? crying, alone. dependent on people. yet pushing them away. mustn't let anyone get close to me, now. because you know what is to become of that. so this game of charades is still on. so fake. cold, hard, unreal. what is this life, that i am living? what is my role in this play? what am i to act out today? and what of me tomorrow? dreaming aloud at 10:54 PM
20 January 2003ohmygoodnessohmygoodnessohmygoodness!! i just found out that michael vartan has the same birthday as me!!!!!!! except he was born in 1968 (in France) and i was born in 1986. 68, 86, close enough. i am still in shock. :)dreaming aloud at 10:30 PM
18 January 2003i think i have a thing for fictional characters. there are so many that i would probably be swooning for, if they were only here right now. i'm already starry-eyed and dreamy, but i'd be much worse if they were in my life. ah, the land of if only...here's my list: 1. Legolas Greenleaf, from the Lord of the Rings 2. Michael Moscovitz, from the Princess Diaries 3. Mr. Knightley, from Emma 4. Gilbert Blythe, from the Avonlea series 5. Dean Talon, from Motocrossed 6. Landon Carter, from A Walk to Remember 7. Charlie, from Center Stage 8. Sam Coulson, from Never Been Kissed 9. Leopold, from Kate and Leopold anyway, that is my list for now. i know, i know, pretty long list, eh? *sigh* i'm pathetic. something i realized the other day: loving someone is so different than being in love with someone... dreaming aloud at 11:49 PM
14 January 2003i don't know how to upload pictures, so here's a "picture" (otherwise known as a quiz result) of orlando bloom, as legolas. Which LOTR Boi Would You Marry? brought to you by Quizilla ...fairly predictable. dreaming aloud at 12:11 AM
13 January 2003Happy 26th Birthday, Orlando Bloom!!!!! :)dreaming aloud at 3:52 PM
10 January 2003another few blogs worth my time: civility, confessions of a sweatshirt, reveriedreaming aloud at 4:51 PM
08 January 2003blog surfing again when i should be doing hwk...*sheepish grin* here's the link, if anyone's interested. (besides me, of course.)a big THANK YOU to joyce for making my day yesterday with a legolas bookmark *dreamy sigh* and to elaine for the wonderful email!! :) i love you both dearly. and HAPPY BIRTHDAY SILAS!!!!! or should i say "ramOn"? *wink* (does anyone know how to do those letters with the accent marks on the computer??? please enlighten me.) dreaming aloud at 9:28 PM
03 January 2003 So which elf are you? Hmm?? made by Michelle at EmptySpace. interesting... dreaming aloud at 12:23 AM
02 January 2003yay, i'mma see two weeks notice with amaris and freesh on saturday!! any other girls wanna join us? :) (sat afternoon, around 4ish)...dreaming aloud at 10:31 PM
i am in love with the movie center stage. i just watched it. i wish i could dance like that. but i really want to go to a professional ballet. does san francisco have a ballet company? plus, the guy she ends up with is really cute. :) i wish i had more intelligent things to say, or could do a recap of my year (this past year, 2002)...but that requires more energy than i have right now. oh, but i did have fun chilling with kevin today. oreo shakes are yummie. and i miss the swings. (childhood memories of playing on the swings at heather farms...) we went to arbolado though, not heather farms. i kinda like arbolado better though. and hey! i climbed a tree today! :) i went to sleep at 12:30 last night...for those of you that know me, you know that's heckove early for me. so i was pretty proud. (didn't sleep at all on new year's, so that's prolly why...haha i was watching princess diaries and FALLING ASLEEP!!! i can't believe it. i actually missed some scenes! cuz i would close my eyes for a lil and just listen to the dialogue, and then open my eyes and watch some of the better parts...and then when i went to bed, i realized i missed some of my fave scenes!!) <--sorry, i digress. ahem. anyway, so i thought i could wake up around 9ish today. but no. i end up sleeping until 12, and i only got up cuz i was meeting kevin at 12:30!! oops. oh well. i still have a chance to try waking up "early" tmrw. amaris has a buddy icon of legolas...*pouts* she stole my man...haha. :) i feel like copying all my poetry into these journals i have...and make a sort of book. a collection of my poems, i guess. but, once again, i am lazy. i still hafta do all my hwk and study for my chinese final too. but what do i do? go watch more movies. i think i might sit out on drumline tmrw though. (ccgc is going...) i am in such a lethargic mood. i have no motivation to do anything. and i wanted to get so much done this winter break. but all i want to do is play. :) go hang out, do absolutely nothing that is "productive" or "useful" and just talk, goof off, relax...and that's kinda what i've been doing. but now winter break is ending...soon...and i really need to get started on the piles of errands and chores that have been building up. bleh. but what do i do? go off and read blogs...and chat online...and sleep late again, prolly. i'd like to change, but then again...i like things the way they are. dreaming aloud at 10:10 PM
movies i want to watch: maid in manhattan catch me if you can pirates of the caribbean ever after kate & leopold never been kissed save the last dance a knight's tale raspberry and lavendar lilo and stitch ice age lady and the tramp movies i've watched since winter break began: center stage princess diaries legally blonde the wedding planner miss congeniality the lord of the rings: the fellowship of the ring the lord of the rings: the two towers the sound of music a walk to remember emma the importance of being earnest the wedding singer oceans 11 home alone home alone 2 home alone 3 two weeks notice ten things i hate about you dreaming aloud at 9:23 PM
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