29 December 2002note to self: check out this blog when you get a chance :)dreaming aloud at 11:57 PM
 So which fairy tale archetype are you? Hmm?? made by Michelle at EmptySpace.  So which LOTR woman are you? Hmm?? made by Michelle at EmptySpace.  So which hobbit are you? Hmm?? made by Michelle at EmptySpace. dreaming aloud at 2:32 PM
24 December 2002Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night!! :)dreaming aloud at 11:22 PM
23 December 2002i don't hafta go anywhere this winter break! so that means more time for friends and family...so, if you want to hang out, or if we had tentative plans to do something, or whatever, just give me a call on my cell. thanks! :) i really wanna hang out with you guys...so call me! :)*note to self: -kevin: golf -girls: LOtR (I and II?) -yg girls sleepover -hang with pauls -hang with grace btw guys, LOtR II was awesome!! better than the first. i love legolas and aragorn...i wish guys were more like them. *sigh* :) and arwen is the best. i want to be like her. ;) i can't wait to see it again. dreaming aloud at 12:17 PM
19 December 2002do you believe in magic? :)a huge THANK YOU to my secret santa. she leaves me cute notes and i love her gifts. (glittery butterfly tatoos and a stationery notepad and pen from sanrio) adorable. :) i love the rain. even though i am sick, walking home in the rain was really fun today. refreshing. i love this kind of rain. it wasn't windy or anything, it was just an outpour of the heavenly skies above. i wonder if God was sad. because this kind of rain always reminds me of tears. maybe God was crying with me, matching the cry of my heart. i was able to walk home, humming to myself, oblivious to everyone and everything else, feeling the fat drops splatter on my face and body, the water trickling down my face and dripping off my clothes. it was as if i was a little kid again. incredibly freeing and lighthearted, not a care in the world, just enjoying the rain. not even caring how wet my clothes were getting in the process. crying does that to you. such a great release. a release to God, a surrender. finally admitting that you're not ok, that you need Him so much more than you thought you did, that you can't control your life or anything in it, that you have to trust that He knows what He's doing, that He knows what's best for you, and that He's doing just that--giving you the best. spending time with God is so incredible. when you're with Him, you know you don't need anyone else. (yet friends are always blessings given to us by God.) lunch time was kind of fun today because it was just me, emily dickinson, and God. i just sat by myself and read poetry. it was kind of nice, to be alone amidst the chaotic splutterings of chatter and banter around me. or well, alone for a little while at least. it's hard to be alone when you're at school; people always find you. there's nowhere to go, to hide. but maybe that's a good thing. i'm so thankful i have people i can truly call my friends. i always took for granted the kind of friends i have. i never realized until this year just how special they really are. if you are one of them, thanks for being my friend. :) there are no words. dreaming aloud at 10:44 PM
15 December 2002a song that recently relates to me:"Landslide" Dixie Chicks I took my love and I took it down I climbed a mountain and I turned around And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills Well the landslide brought me down Oh, mirror in the sky What is love Can the child within my heart rise above Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides Can I handle the seasons of my life Well, I've been afraid of changing 'cause I built my life around you But time makes you bolder Children get older I'm getting older too Well... Well, I've been afraid of changing 'cause I built my life around you But time makes you bolder Children get older I'm getting older, too Well I'm getting older too So, take this love and take it down Yeah and if you climb a mountain and you turn around And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills Well the landslide brought me down And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills Well maybe Well maybe Well maybe the landslide will bring you down dreaming aloud at 12:21 AM
14 December 2002yesterday's weather matched my heart very well. the rain that came straight down was just like tears, in big, fat, teardrops (raindrops). it was gentle and cleansing and refreshing, a slow, steady cry of the heart. today's typhoon, i am glad to say, did NOT match the storm in my heart (which was much smaller compared to the wind and the rain of this storm).youth group, for me, was healing. praise team is awesome. and the youth group-ers are awesome. and God is awesome. and crying out to God is awesome. and bringing Him everything, even my tears, is awesome. i love doing body worship. :) i get to have breakfast with cindy tomorrow morning! :) i'm excited. (do they call breakfast "brekkie" in australia, pauls?) dreaming aloud at 11:23 PM
13 December 2002 WHAT "ALTERNATIVE" HOLLYWOOD STARLETTE ARE YOU? this quiz was made by the sunni bunni bear ...whaaat?! dreaming aloud at 10:57 PM
cry of my heart: YOU ARE STILL HOLY Holy, You are still holy Even when the darkness surrounds my life Sovereign, You are still sovereign Even when confusion has blinded my eyes Lord, I don't deserve Your kind affection When my unbelief has kept me from Your touch I want my life to be a pure reflection Of Your love And so I come into Your chamber And I dance at Your feet, Lord You are my Saviour And I'm at Your mercy All that has been in my life Up 'til now It belongs to You You are still holy Holy, You are still holy Even though I don't understand Your ways Sovereign, You will be sovereign Even when my circumstances don't change Lord, I don't deserve your tender patience When my unbelief has kept me from Your truth I want my life to be a sweet devotion To You And so I come into Your chamber And I dance at Your feet, Lord You are my Saviour And I'm at Your mercy All that has been in my life Up 'til now It belongs to You I belong to You And so I come into Your chamber And I dance at Your feet You are my Saviour And I'm at Your mercy All that has been in my life Up 'til now It belongs to You I belong to You You are still holy You are still sovereign You are still holy, Lord You are still righteous You are all-knowing You are still holy */friday the thirteenth...*shudder* now i know why people dread and fear these days so much.../* dreaming aloud at 10:13 PM
12 December 2002Two poems by Emily Dickinson I especially liked (and came across while reading during chemistry class today):There came a day at summer's full Entirely for me; I thought that such were for the saints, Where revelations be. The sun, as common, went abroad, The flowers, accustomed, blew, As if no sail the solstice passed That maketh all things new. The time was scarce profaned by speech; The symbol of a word Was needless, as a sacrament The wardrobe of our Lord. Each was to each the sealed church, Permitted to commune this time, Lest we too awkward show At supper of the Lamb. The hours slid fast, as hours will, Clutched tight by greedy hands; So faces on two decks look back, Bound to opposing lands. And so, when all the time had failed, Without external sound, Each bound the other's crucifix, We gave no other bond. Sufficient troth that we shall rise-- Deposed, at length, the grave-- To that new marriage, justified Through Calvaries of Love! * * * Before I got my eye put out, I liked as well to see As other creatures that have eyes, And know no other way. But were it told to me, to-day, That I might have the sky For mine, I tell you that my heart Would split, for size of me. The meadows mine, the mountains mine,-- All forests, stintless stars, As much of noon as I could take Between my finite eyes. The motions of the dipping birds, The lightning's jointed road, For mine to look at when I liked,-- The news would strike me dead! So, safer, guess, with just my soul Upon the window-pane Where other creatures put their eyes, Incautious of the sun. * * * i have much on my wishlist now. i really want a complete collection of all of emily dickinson's poetry, in original format (the poems above are NOT in original format. hmph. her originals had much more variety in punctuation. capital letters all over the place, no commas, just dashes EVERYWHERE...it was stylistically creative and beautiful. *sigh* :) i wish they just left it like that. but no. they had to go and tamper with it, to make it "easier to read"...they had to change some words so that it would "rhyme better." grr. what do they know about poetry.), and a nice edition (meaning nice cover--not necessarily hardback vs softcover, but just the cover in general...it hasta look nice, or i won't buy it...i'm prejudiced, i judge books by their covers. :) but i figure that a book with a nice cover makes it more worthwile to buy and read. that's just one of my lil quirks i guess.). i also want the cd "wide open spaces" by the dixie chicks, because i lost my copy. :( and of course, fairie and butterfly tatoos. :) and my new fave perfume, christian dior: addict. yum. and of course, many chick flicks (dvd's of course) and cd's (too many to name). so yes. that's what is on my wishlist as of now. *grin* and that reminds me, i must go christmas shopping! argh. not too many days left. i have no clue what to get for everyone. and i don't even know if i'll have time. maybe no one will get anything this year. bah, humbag. (even though i really DO want to give everyone gifts!! and i don't want to be a grouch at christmas...i really am looking forward to christmas. i love christmas. and i love giving people gifts. but...this year...no energy...no time...and i hate giving "generic" gifts, because they're not thoughtful...so what's the point in that? maybe i'll just do cards for everyone...and for a very select few special people, i'll give real gifts to...if i can find any worth giving.) mock congress looks interesting. i am looking forward to doing it next year. of course, i do want to get into gov honors...but i doubt that'll happen, because i'm not very interested in government stuff, and so i don't know much about it. and they only take like 25 people (max) i think. but i really really hope i get into english honors, cuz i love english. well, for the most part. i thought of a senior project already! :) (yes, it's a bit early. but it's only an idea.) i think i want to publish a book. either a book of poetry or a children's book. i've always wanted to do that. and see what it's like to go through the process of getting published...and designing the cover and overall format of the book...having a pen name...it's so kewl! *voice sqeaks* :) *ahem* anyways...i'm going to the band concert tomorrow night at northgate. i hafta do my concert report, and i don't have time to go over winter break. (yes i know, winter break...and i'm super busy already. the first week is christmas stuff for church and then a retreat with my family and cousin's family, and then the second week is filled with plans with friends!! i can't wait! oh yeah and hwk...bleh.) so yes. i'm going tomorrow. because it's close by, and free, and the timing works out. concert band, wind ensemble, and jazz band are playing. oh yes. i also talked to mr gishe today. it was just me and him again. it was kinda nice, cuz we got a chance to discuss things, and he's a really kewl guy. interesting, and very...i don't know the word. i can't even begin to describe what we talked about. (mostly cuz i'm tired.) but yes. he's very interesting. in a good way. i admire him a lot. i know some people don't like him. but i do. and mr gemkow is super kewl too! i wish i had him this year...*sigh* oh well. i don't get to talk to him anymore though. :( a song i really like on the dixie chicks cd: "I Believe In Love" I made a promise to myself Locked it away deep down inside Told my heart we'd wait it out Swore we'd never compromise Oh I'd rather be alone Like I am tonight Than settle for the kind of love That fades before the morning light Silence stared me in the face And I finally heard its voice It seemed to softly say That in love you have a choice Today i got the answer And there's a world of truth behind it Love is out there waiting somewhere You just have to go and find it I believe in love, I believe in love A love that's real, love that's strong Love that lives on and on Yes I believe in love Yes I believe in love dreaming aloud at 11:31 PM
Remember Christina Georgina Rossetti Remember me when I am gone away, Gone far away into the silent land; When you can no more hold me by the hand, Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay. Remember me when no more day by day You tell me of our future that you planned: Only remember me; you understand It will be late to counsel then or pray. Yet if you should forget me for a while And afterwards remember, do not grieve: For if the darkness and corruption leave A vestige of the thoughts that once I had, Better by far you should forget and smile Than that you should remember and be sad. The Convent Threshold Christina Georgina Rossetti ... For all night long I dreamed of you; I woke and prayed against my will, Then slept to dream of you again. At length I rose and knelt and prayed. I cannot write the words I said, My words were slow, my tears were few; But through the dark my silence spoke Like thunder. When this morning broke, My face was pinched, my hair was grey, And frozen blood was on the sill Where stifling in my struggle I lay. If now you saw me you would say: Where is the face I used to love? And I would answer: Gone before; It tarries veiled in paradise. When once the morning star shall rise, When earth with shadow flees away And we stand safe within the door, Then you shall lift the veil thereof. Look up, rise up: for far above Our palms are grown, our place is set; There we shall meet as once we met, And love with old familiar love. (to read the entire poem go here. you might hafta type in the name of the poem or poet.) i remember reading a poem by christina rossetti before...(any of my friends who have read my robin jones gunn books, remember in the christy miller series?) i got a poem from one of those books that was written by christina rossetti also. *note to self: read more of her poetry! oh yes and also of...walt whitman? (was that his name, freesh?) and read up on oscar wilde. now i am really going to sleep. this time for real. :) dreaming aloud at 1:13 AM
i gave my speech today. i thought it went pretty well. i was pretty nervous before i went up there (ok, extremely nervous), but when i got up there, somehow it wasn't that bad...i relaxed a little and was able to deliver my speech without much mishap. i want to see what i got though. :) oh and i went to bed at 12:30 last night!! :) *proud* i was a page for mock congress...it was fun but not. it was kinda confusing actually. and some of the people are so rude, treating me like i'm actually a servant or slave, speaking to me condescendingly! but some people were really kind and polite and respectful, so that made up for it...also, we got to watch castaway in psych. it's...not the best movie i've seen. but maybe it's cuz i've never seen it before, and we skipped the beginning because it's "irrelevant" to what we're studying in psychology. darn. i don't like watching only parts of movies. math was interesting. just me and mr gishe. not even jean du showed up. but mr gishe is kewl, so it's all good. i actually want to talk to him about something tomorrow...so i'm looking forward to math. :) i took a nap!! unintentionally, of course. two hours...i guess i needed that rest though. i have been so exhausted lately, physically, emotionally, spiritually drained. but each day somehow i am refreshed with an optimistic outlook on my life. i know i complain a lot, and i apologize to all who listen to me do so. but deep down i really am excited to live, excited to be alive. there is so much goodness and rich sweetness in life. i don't understand how some people don't appreciate it. all they want to do is die. and get it over with. but it seems to me that they are already dead...they got what they wished for. because if you don't appreciate each day of life...it's like you're already dead to life anyway. i hope to someday become a person who has the ability to make people feel at ease around her, a person who is gracious and kind and gentle-spirited to others, who has a certain elegance and carries herself with grace and dignity, but not in the snobbish, condescending way. a person who does not gossip and give in to the ways of this world, the materialism, the greed, the selfishness. i would like to be truly selfless and always looking out for the best interests of others. i know that i have been afraid to be open and transparent to others, because it makes me vulnerable, and sometimes that can be scary because people can take advantage of you. but i guess you just hafta watch out for people like that, and know that they're always going to be out there...so you hafta guard your heart and your mind in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:7) i really do want to be able to be there for my friends...to see them and listen to them and reach out to them...but i get so self-absorbed. and i want to respect others and always be kind to them...but i am afraid of what they will think of me. so i am guarded, too guarded, and come off as rude and sarcastic or uncaring and apathetic. i push people away because i fear they will get too close, and yet i crave for that closeness with people, for that genuine connection made with others. i have a long way to go... prayer. i need to pray. i really really need to pray. but first i must learn how to pray. ... i practiced violin today! :) for half an hour or forty-five minutes. that's a pretty short time, but it's actually really good for me. because i never practice. never. so i am glad i have gotten a lot of things done this week. (that speech took me forever to write though...*sigh* i'm glad that's over! oh yeah...the speeches in my class were really really amazingly good! i was so surprised. didn't expect it. but we have a lot of great writers. it makes giving speeches and writing assignments and discussions a lot more interesting and motivating--for me to contribute and do my best, that is. inspiration and encouragement comes in many different forms...) i also got my "organic style" magazine today! my first issue. and it is incredible. i love that magazine. :) new fave. (freesh, i definitely recommend it. i have a discount order form if you want it. let me know.) well, it was around 12 or so when i started writing, but now it is almost 1...how sad. i was going to sleep "early" tonight. (well at least i got a two-hour nap!) but that's ok cuz i'm talking to a friend right now. ok, goodnight everyone. dreaming aloud at 12:53 AM
09 December 2002who woulda thought that talking with lil jeffrey on the phone would motivate me to write my english speech outline? or get the ideas flowing? (actually just your ideas...) :) thanks for your help. off to bed!! PRINT!!! yay. (pressing the print button has never felt so good...)dreaming aloud at 12:58 AM
08 December 2002 Brought to you by Ying of tian-caiNET! dreaming aloud at 9:59 PM
I would like to visit a castle in England sometime. To be able to see it with my own eyes...how sad that fairytales cannot happen in real life. How disappointing that castles are so cold and lonely, unlike the fairytale castle I have pictured in my mind... The tears I bring to God are surprisingly refreshing, renewing. Humbling. They are the cleansing of the soul and help me to see myself better, to see things more clearly. Perhaps this is why I cry so much. Maybe it is a way for God to get my attention, to make me see what He wants me to see. I just wish I knew what He wants me to do... I took SAT I's today. Note to self: always get enough sleep before you go. And always eat enough breakfast beforehand!! And don't get there late. It's too nerve-wracking (on top of the nervousness you already have from anticipating that dreaded test). I want to know what I got though. I wonder when we'll get our scores back. I've had some good talks with some people recently. It saddens me to realize how far away I am drifting from some people, and also how I want to give up on some friendships. I feel horrible about that. But I just don't agree with how they are living their lives...not that I'm condemning them or judging them...well I guess in a way I am. But...I don't know how to put this into words...I am just tired of certain people. It's horrible to just give up on your friends. Yet I don't know what else to do. And in some friendships, right now I don't know whether to back out now to save myself (or will I end up hurting myself because of it?) but break a promise, or to stay put and not give up on the friendship, but suffer in the process. I was never good at making decisions. I weigh the different sides too many times. I see the positives (and negatives) of both sides...I see why I should do both. So I understand both sides, but I don't know which to follow. What does God want me to do?? I am thoroughly confused. I thought I was doing fine. I thought I had made a decision...and was going to stick with it. I thought that's what God wanted of me. But today...I was shown how weak and vulnerable I am. How I can't depend on myself to stick with and uphold such promises, such decisions. I must depend on God. Why is it that whenever I think I know what God is telling me to do, and I make a decision to do a certain thing, I can never follow through on that decision...something always wavers me. I am not yet strong enough. How foolish I was to make myself so vulnerable, to wear my heart on my sleeve. (or was it foolish? is it foolish to be yourself, to be who you are? is this who i am? someone vulnerable and emotional and open? or am i timid and closed, afraid to share what i deeply care about? afraid to say what i truly think and feel?) dreaming aloud at 12:50 AM
I cannot decide on two (or more) quotes to speak about for my English speech. Ralph Waldo Emerson: -->"Character is higher than intellect." -->"This time, like all times, is a very good one, if we but know what to do with it." "What lies behind us and what lies before us are small matters compared to what lies within us." "Men grind and grind in the mill of a truism, and nothing comes out but what was put in. But the moment they desert the tradition for a spontaneous thought, then poetry, wit, hope, virtue, learning, anecdote, all flock to their aid." "Beauty without grace is the hook without the bait." -->"What is a weed? A plant whose virtues have not yet been discovered." -->"We are always getting ready to live, but never living." "Great men are they who see that spiritual is stronger than any material force; and that thoughts rule the world." Henry David Thoreau: -->"I hear many condemn these men because they were so few. When were the good and the brave ever in a majority?" -->"We must walk consciously only part way toward our goal, and then leap in the dark to our success." "I never found the companion that was so companionable as solitude." "The poet is a man who lives at last by watching his moods. An old poet comes at last to watch his moods as narrowly as a cat does a mouse." "A perfectly healthy sentence, it is true, is extremely rare. For the most part we miss the hue and fragrance of the thought; as if we could be satisfied with the dews of the morning or evening without their colors, or the heavens without their azure." often times, words do seem to take away some of the meaning behind things, don't they? "He is the best sailor who can steer within fewest points of the wind, and exact a motive power out of the greatest obstacles." -->"The mass never comes up to the standard of its best member, but on the contrary degrades itself to a level with the lowest." "I am sorry to think that you do not get a man's most effective criticism until you provoke him. Severe truth is expressed with some bitterness." "Make the most of your regrets; never smother your sorrow, but tend and cherish it till it come to have a separate and integral interest. To regret deeply is to live afresh." -->"Behave so the aroma of your actions may enhance the general sweetness of the atmosphere." "The way by which you may get money almost without exception leads downward." "The rich man. . . is always sold to the institution which makes him rich. Absolutely speaking, the more money, the less virtue." dreaming aloud at 12:24 AM
03 December 2002i took another practice SAT tonight, and i improved my score!!! *dances around happily with a silly grin pasted on her face* i got a 1350! yay. it's an ok score. i'm just happy it's out of the 1200's range. i was tired of getting 1290 (even though i only took a total of three practice tests). i improved my verbal. but, as my verbal score increased, my math score decreased. how does that work?? :( and math is supposed to be my good subject, the dependable half of this test!! argh. i don't remember how to do all those combinations and series and probability junk, and factorials and such. ugh. i don't even remember all the terms. i just know i can't do those types of problems. grr. anyway. so today i was extremely tired. moodiness definitely kicked in today. in the morning i was crabby as ever, highly irritable. don't know about what though. well, don't remember. at the time i was annoyed. but lunch was good. i was in a happy mood. don't ask me why, cuz i don't know. i really wanted to get up and dance, move around, dance to some upbeat song. like the dance we did last night. even though i couldn't really do it, it was still fun. and i had it stuck in my head at lunch. well, i was planning on going to love-a-child tonight, but then my dear ol' mom tells me to study for SAT's instead. so i do. and here i am. online, addicted to blogs again. i really gotta get offline. this is not a good addiction.dreaming aloud at 11:52 PM
02 December 2002dance class was super fun today! we had a sub, and it was a guy...weird at first, but he's kewl. he's actually a hip hop instructor, so today was all hip hop. he taught us this really cute routine. i hope i can remember it and actually do it. the only downfall to it was that it was to christina aguilera's song, "dirrty." ugh. she turned britney on us...despite the fact that i slept around 2:30 last night (this morning) doing chem hwk (that take-home quiz) and other miscellanious things, i was able to wake up to get my butt to school on time (never mind the fact that mom drove me...heh). and i managed not to fall asleep in any of my classes. :) i was actually pretty energetic today. and in a good mood. but now i'm feeling the effects of not getting enough sleep...i'll prolly crash soon enough. well today was a relatively good day. lunch was kinda weird though. our small group for christian club met today. nancy hsu, kelley way (wei?), faith chow, and me. interesting...hopefully our small group time will prove useful and effective. i've been reading boy meets girl by joshua harris. it's such a good book. i like it better than i kissed dating goodbye, also written by him. there are some really great points he makes in this book. for example: "Eve was not taken out of Adam's head to top him, neither out of his feet to be trampled by him, but out of his side to be equal with him, under his arm to be protected by him, and near his heart to be loved by him." ~Matthew Henry in his commentary on Genesis (ok so this one isn't written by joshua harris, but it was in this book) "Femininity is not weakness. It requires great strength of character for a woman to be gentle in an age that screams for her to do otherwise." "If a man's biggest temptation is to be passive, a woman's biggest temptation is to take control." notes to myself: "The first way you should view a Christian guy is a brother." "Girls should assume that until a guy expresses interest, they're just friends." quote found when doing "research" for psych class: "Everyone needs to feel valued. Everyone has the potential to give something back." ~Diana, Princess of Wales well that's it for now. goodnight. God bless. dreaming aloud at 11:11 PM
01 December 2002thank you cathy soooo much for the beret!!! i LOVE it! :) it is so adorable. :)today was fun. went out for lunch with some people from church. we went to applebee's. yum. chem is boring. and infuriating. and exasperating. but friends make it more fun. :) interesting phone call tonight...how do you know me so well?!?! ahhh! freaky. :) anyway thanx for asking how i was doing. i am surprised people even notice. dreaming aloud at 10:55 PM
someone needs to break me of my shopping addiction...i have a problem of burning money too quickly...or rather, i should break my addiction...but how? i am in love with the new dixie chicks cd. *sigh* blissful happiness... ok, NOW i am going to sleep. :) dreaming aloud at 2:19 AM
i can't seem to go to bed yet. my mind is too full, of life, whirring with activity and reminders and thoughts and ideas. slow down! my stomach hurts. i wish it would go away. joe chang and justis kao are really really good. wish i could sing and play like that. i took another practice SAT...and i got the same exact score!!!!! 1290. except this time i did ten points higher in the vocab/reading/whatever-it's-called section, and ten points lower on the math section. *sigh* people can write such good poetry. i am amazed. i bought a notebook and a sketchbook from barnes and nobles, and they're binded in this simple canvas-y hard cover...finally i have somewhere to record my poems! :) ooh...that reminds me. i have yet to use that cute little book that roger gave me...the pages are so thin though that i don't know if i should use it to write poetry in...and the pages are too small for my long poems. how do people write such condensed poems?! i think it's so kewl when people can do that. talked with my cousin kat for about an hr on wednesday night...first time we talked in a looong time. it's amazing that we can just pick up right where we left off after not talking for so long. now that's a true friend. spent thanksgiving with family and relatives (at kat's house). dim sum lunch at restaurant peony with grandma and family first, then went to kat's house to spend the rest of the day with her family. watched legally blonde with her while my lil bro and her lil sis watched monsters inc., then we all watched princess diaries together. that is the cutest movie!! i luv it. especially the deleted scenes. (the pizza parlor one!) *sigh* i wish all friendships and relationships could be that simplistic. spent friday with my mommy...shopping...sales are good. we spent soooo much money...and i thought we were just gonna go for a couple of hrs...in the morning...and be back for lunch. but no. we got to broadway around 10:30 and came back around 5:00. this is, of course, after eating a late lunch at p.f. chang's (around 3!!), and making a stop at the library. but still. so i got home and was too tired to go anywhere else for the rest of the day (so i didn't go to church. that was weird.). but i DID study SAT's and hang out with my bro and dad, and read for fun! amazing...slept late tho AGAIN. and today i studied some more SAT's (just finished the one i started last night) and uhm...did some chem...(did it all wrong, grr) and played tennis with my family...(me and my bro lost to mom and dad, argh) and...oh yeah. joe chang and justis kao concert at church. awesome. wish i didn't go late. had to sit in back. :( well, i spent most of my vacation with my family...weird isn't it. but it's kinda kewl cuz i can talk to my mom about stuff, like a friend...well, almost. it was fun hanging with her tho. i had an awesome birthday tho!! i had to get up semi-early (around 8) to go to church and practice for the instrumental part of a christmas thingy (go violins!), and we practiced from about 9 to 11. then i went to the "new" movie theatres in downtown pleasant hill (in crescent center) to meet all my friends. we bought our tickets for harry potter (they bought mine! how nice!) and then went to sweet tomatoes for a yummie lunch. got so full, i got a slight tummy ache (or maybe it was from that humungous ice cream cone that rozita made for me!! which i never did get to smash into kevin's face...darn). went to the movies half an hr early to get good seats (all in a row! cuz there were so many of us) and i opened all my presents while we were waiting for the movie to start. i luv all my presents!! thankies guys!! and thanks for taking me out and making my bday so special!!! harry potter was scary. i'm glad i had my purple teddy bear (thanx jo!) to keep me company and to hug and squeeze during the scary parts. i got freaked, as usual. why do i get scared so easily? hmm. anyway. went to jamba juice afterwards. went back to movie theatres to wait for parents, and while giving steph a hug goodbye, my hand lost grip of the smoothie it was holding after steph's arm tagged it a bit, and the smoothie went ker-splat! on the sidewalk. it exploded! the bottom fell out. it was quite amusing. losing the smoothie was totally worth it, to see a smoothie explode. after taking rozita, jo, and freesh home, i went out to dinner with my family at standford's? sanford's? iono, it was good though. and then went home and watched some chick flicks that i had rented earlier in the week: my best friend's wedding and ever after. *sigh* i love love love ever after. :) i need to buy that one as well as princess diaries. ok, i admit it. i'm obsessed with chick flicks. and now i have succeeded in making myself hungry, after talking about made-from-scratch pumpkin pie with a friend online. darn it! must not eat...must not eat...must go to bed... actually, my eyelids are getting heavier...and my fingers hurt from typing so much...well this makes up for the lack of posts lately. i have been online for: 2 hrs 45 min!!!! AHHH!!! i hafta get off. now. ok, soon. maybe in a little while... dreaming aloud at 2:15 AM
i had actually done this a while ago, but never posted it...so christina, i'm not copying you!! :) although i AM copying your idea of bolding the ones you like...;) (btw, when are we gonna watch save the last dance and miss congeniality?) something to do when you're bored :) :googlism fairie is constantly expanding and maps are unreliable fairie is patterned after a gingko leaf fairie is patterned after a valerian leaf fairie is not really a job fairie is $85 fairie is $65 fairie is a simple silk 4" body that is dyed and covered with beads fairie is lit up from the inside with blue neon lights fairie is the focus of your picture fairie is not real fairie is purty what do you think psiprone? fairie is one of a kind fairie is available as a "single" fairie is hiding behind a curtain fairie is equivalent to 2 in kragora fairie is " ms fairie is probably going to have fairie is a brass sculpture in a brass finish fairie is an anarchist who defines his or her anarchy however that person wants to fairie is are the name given to many diferent non physical beings mostly ranging the catagories from deva or earth spirits to playful sprites and intense fairie is annoying for older gamers fairie is the centerpiece of this three panel design with spiderwebs in the background fairie is actually a scanned photo of one of my nieces as a child fairie is at its thinnest fairie is ruled by a being called the fairie queen fairie is wondrously described fairie is about 4x2 inches fairie is more potent fairie is hand crafted from porcelain fairie is strong here and many fairie creatures can cross over and live around the lake for long periods of time fairie is ready to step it up with her friends as they go out for a night of dancing in the moon fairie is snoozing in her bedroom fairie is not here =d and quit calling me maam o_o it sounds like im an old woman~ =p fairie is the letter v and he's singing to the u fairie fairie is about as credible as a verbal agreement with a drunken ogre fairie is supposed to be delusion fairie is a collective term for many different beings fairie is garrett fairie is here to tell her that fairie is peopled with many fairie is bravely clothed in white linen fairie is contemplating the beauty of a lotus flower fairie is a demonstration piece for an online interactive art project currently being developed by george s fairie is given the ultimate sentence fairie is touched by non fairie is warned not to leave the path fairie is often ignored fairie is geboetseerd op een houtenplateau met daarop bevestigd een houten plankje als basis voor het muurtje fairie is geboetseerd op een echt struisvogel ei fairie is underground fairie is still alive at age 92 fairie is even my favourite colour fairie is just as meaningless as it was here? where will i find hope then?" fairie is normally very reserved fairie is a fairy that is only used for healing fairie is an exact shadow of our world but most maintain that it is a place of paradise where all dead go regardless of their deeds in fairie is behind this wall in the face shrine fairie is sculpted creating individual personalities becoming to their natures so that no two are exactly alike fairie is a mud ballet fairie is exquisite fairie is now in one of the houses fairie is finished with it fairie is seen in top center fairie is some phrase of delight as he leaves fairie is the daughter of clinton dupree and ida mae brown dreaming aloud at 1:29 AM
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hey jeff, look! i'm creamy...haha.  The Band Quiz By Rahel hey kewl! i've always wanted to learn how to play the sax. maybe i will someday...
Take the test, by Emily. refreshingly hopeful, regardless of that fact that you know what kind of odds you are facing. keep on truckin'.
dreaming aloud at 12:14 AM
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